Unbeautiful'

2009-09-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

loves my dear =)mwax

Taiping Trip =)

2009-08-25T11:13:00.007+08:00

Everytime We Touch.

2009-08-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Birthday =)

2009-08-18T21:57:00.006+08:00

me and my best friend =) MONTHS AGO !!

2009-08-18T20:31:00.003+08:00

2009-08-15T20:42:00.001+08:00

Waaa exam is in 2 days and goodness..this is the exam i feel like giving up !! sighh..din read anything dun evern understand what the teacher or the book's sayingg...GONE leee !! sobss.. forget itt waaaaaaaa

~!@#$%^&*()_
\~!@#$%^&*()_
~!@#$%^&*()_+

Be With You =)

2009-07-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
Your the one I want and I’m a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and I’m considered husband
And I’m a always be there for you
And either way you look at it I ain’t goin no where for my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make a better fussin
And that’s what gets me closer to you

And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That’s why we'll break through

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain’t got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you I’m into doing things to keep her longer
Stickin together forever, watch it grow stronger
That’s the way it has to be, everything proper
Keepin it always true

And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That’s why we'll break through

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain’t no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And that’s why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don’t care what they do
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you
I’m gonna be with you

2009-07-30T23:27:00.003+08:00

BIRTHDAY SURPIRSEE !! BY MY BFF'S ...they couldn't make it at the beginning so they occupied the end of my 18th birthday =) at night....love you bff's !! =)

cupcakes made with love =) and melted butter haha

Lucky

2009-07-26T18:59:00.000+08:00

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

2009-07-23T21:02:00.004+08:00

Lol its been a week since i wrote in my bloggie againnn.... sad sad
hmmm....life's been better..not good not bad but still better i guess..
SUNDAY NIGHT... hanged out with my bestiessss....had loads of fun...Stef let me drive after that from Batu Feringghi back to my houseee... THANK GOD we're like so alive !! after 2 months of not touching the car really karat like crazyy..forgotten where the oil and the breaks were..oopsss....anyway it was a NICE experieceeee though... lol

Hahaaa....birthday's today and...

THANKS LIN HIN ofr the PIGGIESSS !!

AND MY SIS FOR THE ALL-SO-GLITTERING-I'VE BEEN EYEE-ING A VERY LONG TIME PURSE =)

AND not forgetting TZE THONG too for the pretty necklacee =)

biggest achievement today ??? SKIPPING 2 PERIODS OF PHYSICSSSS AND ANOTHER 2 FREE PERIODS OF MATHSSSS !!! WEEEE

2009-07-16T19:33:00.000+08:00

Saturday, stepping into the club
The music makes me wanna tell the DJ, tune it up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well, I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand
Why would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life but not the way you want me to

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are, back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like

I've gotta say respectfully
I would love it if you would take the cameras off of me
Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I just need to free my mind
Just wanna dance and have a good time

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

2009-07-16T19:02:00.008+08:00

Lol...there;s just no time to update this blogg.grrr

anyway...went for OC Camp last weekend...kinda funn !! REALLY did especially the night game..scary but nice haha...in the end, my group call me PRINCESSS haha or MASTERPIECE..lol princess sounds nicerrr...haha

anywayy...so many things to say but lazy to writeee...soo ...

oh yeAH and congrats to GRACE and EDWIN on their wedding..haha did a surprise dance for them and the bride cried cause she was touch lol...so ..had funn !! hahaa

2009-07-10T14:50:00.003+08:00

Lol....busy busy busy haha but manage to go out on Monday night to eat steamboat with shaun, tony, sis and pras. Tuesday went to Northam Beach to eat ( supposed to be at Coffee Island but raining lol...) haha... been busy with the tons of homework...no time for rest !! aahh...going to oc camp tomoro at school lol..waaa

2009-07-04T22:22:00.003+08:00

Lol...i seriously lack BLOGGING. i need to pay attention more to it and i lack photos...haha din take pictures for a long, very long time already...aahhh!! BUSY me =( its just the lazy bone inside me to carry a cam around haha...woke up early today and actualy completed some house work..ahhah...went to gurney in the evening to shop ahha and met stef and qiu lin...had fun with some STRANGERS lol..actually new friends..haha kinda miss school now..not school..just the atmosphere in class...haha and its only been a day..lol

Kk day.. Alfred took this without me knowing..lol

Not again
Oh this ain't supposed to happen to me

Keep rockin and keep knockin'
Whether you're Louie Vuittonin' it up, or Reebokin'
You see the hate that they serving on a plater
So what we gon have dessert or disaster?

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)

I never thought I hear myself say
Ya'll gon hate
I think I'm going to kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander-in-chief for my pimp ship flying high
Till i met this pretty little missile, who shot me out the sky

So now I'm crashing don't know how it happened
but i know it feels so damn good
Said if i could go back and make it happen faster
don't you know i would baby if i could
Miss independent, to the fullest, the load never too much
she helping me pull it, she shot bullet that ended that life
I swear to you the pimp in me just died tonight
girl sometimes love

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Tell me now can you make past your caspers
So we could finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams
to seem to only date the head of football teams,
and i was the class clown that always kept you laughing
we were never meant to be, baby we just happened
so please don't mess up the trick,
hey young world, i'm the new slick rick,
they say i move to quick but we can't let this moment past us,
let the hour glass pass right into ashes
let the wind blow the ashes right before my glasses
so i wrote this love letter right before my classes
how could a goddess ask someone that's only average, for advice
o-m-g you listen to that bitch?
woah is me, baby this is tragic
cause we had it, we was magic
i was flying, now i'm crashing
this is bad, real bad, michael jackson
now i'm mad, real mad, joe jackson
you should leave your boyfriend now, i'ma ask him

so you gotta take the good with the bad, the happy and the sad
or will you bring the better future then i had in the past
cause i don't want to make the same mistakes i did
i don't wanna fall back on my face again
woah, woah
i'll admit it, i was scared to answer loves call
woah, woah
and if it hits, better make it worth the fall

(When it comes around)

Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around (comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)

Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love comes knocks you down

Won’t see it coming when it happens
but when it happens you’re gonna feel it, let me tell you now
you see when love knocks you down

2009-07-03T22:01:00.002+08:00

Lol. I forgot i left my blog STRANDED. Like OMG. anyway.. school is FUN !! Kind of.. love my class =) L6SC2 is just FULL of happenings..haha everything's cool except the HOMEWORK PART. That seriously is killing me...and exam is like next month..can't think of it.. and so's theory..
But being bullied in class. That's a different story..Its like 3 guys against a girl...waaa imagine the names they come out with for me..like first it was Zombie, Catwoman, Babi Hutan and now PIG !! waaa...Where in the world is justice and woman's rights...haha...and being slapped for the first time too....waaa....HORRIBLE BARBARIANSSS..................
at least we have fun CURI EATING in class...and all those nonsense...
anyway...i'm a good girl now cause i sleep like SO EARLY ...by 11 every night...=)
anyway...less blogging is gonna be done cause of the HUGE HOMEWORK LOAD...so ...
and Shaun's competing for the MR PENANG title on Sunday so ... ALL THE BESTT !! haha

2009-06-27T14:23:00.001+08:00

*&^%$#@!

2009-06-27T14:23:00.000+08:00

!@#$%^&*

2009-06-25T20:56:00.003+08:00

Lol it's been almost 2 weeks of school.
And it's amazingly not that bad.
NOT THAT BAD not including homework, weather and transport.
Haha well that really sucks.
But otherwise, it's all okay i guess...
For the moment.
So many things to complain about..but i guess i'll complain mentally instead of spilling it all out.
...

Lol...Qiu Lin's gonna go study in KL !! Congrats dear for getting that scholarship but we're so gonna misss you BADLY...how can you leave us like that?? =( haha but not even distance will tear our friendship apart. Definitely. Am gonna miss you my LONGEST BFF Ever.=)

2009-06-17T18:54:00.001+08:00

TIRED !!
BUSY !!
GRR.....
HARD !!!
DEAD!!

2009-06-14T21:21:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S STARTING TOMORROW !! LOL !!
HATE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!
KINDA BORINGGG!!
HAHAA...
ENERGYLESS ALREADYY!!

2009-06-05T22:46:00.007+08:00

RED, TEDDY BEAR, ROOM =)

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Went hiking with my bestie ( which i haven't seen in 6 months a.k.a half a year ) and my best friend. =) on Wednesday...had loads of fun.. bestie let me drove his car awhile..awww sweet =)

Bestie's shirt....damn cute. !! The first thing i notice when i see him is THE SHIRT...=)

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a PURPLE motocrycle =) IT'S SERIOUSLY PURPLE..but dunno why after it appear on the cam screen it's kinda blue-ish.

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HIKING WITH THE YOUTH .=) On Sunday

Uncle JO.

Tze Kai punctured halfway..haha

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OUTING WITH MY BFF'S =)

2009-05-29T20:42:00.002+08:00

2009-05-20T13:55:00.003+08:00

lol...nothing happy-fying this dayss..the only nice things are...

Baby G can say my name already !! awww...she calls me ER JIE too....=) she's so gorgeously cute. aahh..
Self declared holiday. But nothing good about it either.
Clean room. Yeah i've clean my room so now it's NEAT and it's my PALACE..small little palace...xD
The earphones are stuck to my ear...it's all about the MUSIC..XD
Don't have to take two buses home from school everyday...goodness
My best friend teman-ing me 24/7 =)
I don't have to obey school rules for the moment.

That's all i can think of..haha Not that happy-fying eh..created a new word..HAPPY-FYING =)

2009-05-20T13:48:00.002+08:00

Lol...bored bored bored. Been ponteng-ing school for 3 days..and still counting... till i get that freaking transfer...lol....its been me, the mp3, the hp, the borrowed i-pod and the bed. haha.. nothing else to do..except that i went shopping yesterday morning for stuff...food...haha what is there to do...lazy to study, lazy to do anything =) goodness.... lalala~

2009-05-12T16:26:00.052+08:00

HONG KONG - the summarised trip.
One trip, Three Hotels, Five people, 800 over pictures.

First Day

Wake up at 4am. Flight at 7.45am. Had MCD for breakfast !! =)

Passport to Hong Kong =) Excited.

Cathay Pacific~ our flight xD

The food in Cathay Pacific seriously not that bad. haha

Passport xD

Chinese Visa

Welcome to Hong Kong!

The Hong Kong airport is so big that we need this to get to the other part of the airport.

First trip on the roads. xD

Was fascinated by their AIRBUS, one of many buses.

Their Bridge !

Our Room Number 1 !

The Citiview, where we stayed on Day 1 and Day 4.

Mannings ! Their version of Guardian ! Means Guardian is Mannings. Whatever...

Their 7-11 ! This is something I must say ! Their one STREET of 7 Elevens is like our one PENANG of 7 Elevens. Everywhere you turn you can just see a 7 Eleven shop. GOODNESS!

Nathan Road ~ The longest road there, Maybe cause its really really long.

Dad eating our first lunch in Hong Kong.

The food. Its all so HUGE !! Like OMG! Kim Gary only serve half of the plate.

They even have cute PURPLE buses. xD

Octopus Card ! You can use it for MRT'S and even buy stuff in shops.

Jackie Chan!!

Their train is so much faster than our PENANG HILL train.lol

Meet Obama !!

And the journalists + reporters cause we were the guess of honours. xD

Jay Chou =)

Naomi Campbell i think =)

Mr and Mrs Pitt !!

Some famous model but i forgot the name..xD

Leo Ku! I like the blue hair.xD

Aaron Kwok!

The Korean actor but i forgot the name. Its that Winter Sonata guy ler.

ermm..the late Leslie Cheung i think

Princess Diana came to life ! haha

And the England queen ! Me !!

Dad just got to preach during Washington's party!

Mahatma Ghandi!

William Shakespear~aahh

Mozart i think!

Some famous artist...err isit Leonardo Davinci ??Dunno la..

Ermm i think he's that gravity guy..SHIT! I forgot his name..now i rmbr !Einstein !!

James Bond?

OMG I FORGOT HIS NAME ! THAT WILLY WONKA, PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN GUY!

Jackie Chan xD

Jodie Foster ! I love herr!!

Marilyn Monroe =)

Some very tall basketballer! Im not that short..xD

David Becham!!

Ronaldhino!!

Elvis Presley!

The Twins!

Miriam Yeung

Joey Yung!

Ethan!! He likes to pose for the camera unlike his sis..xD CUTE!

Some bread ?? or something...

We pluck out the road sign and stuff it in the bag..we got it through the customs illegally and now its hanging proudly on top of my bro's room door.

Steamboat...eww

SECOND DAY

Jackie Chan's house is somewhere there. xD

The floating restaurant. =)

cable car

The family from Singapore we met. xD

Bianca !! Its so hard to get a pic of her. She's so pretty !! xD

They seriously have nice wallpapers.xD

THIRD DAY IN SHEN ZHEN, CHINA

And nice english too!

These are call LUCKY BABY'S ! Haha damn cute!! water actually squirts out from ermm...you know la..

Bought lots of TEA!

Mini GREAT WALL OF CHINA!

Shaolin monks. Theya are actually quite cool and young..haha

Sat on a horse. It doesnt just walk..it gallops like crazy like the one you see in movies. Damn cool!

Lol..they call us ALIENS..Sad......waa...

FOURTH DAY !! Came back from Shen Zhen and did some walking......

The place famous for shooting movies by TVB Hong Kong

FIFTH DAY .....Off to DISNEYLAND!

Their room! damn gorgeous!!

Hollywood Hotel!

Our room number !!

Sixth Day ! back to Disneyland again..then back to Penang!

Ticket back home !!

2009-04-30T22:14:00.001+08:00

Lol. Wont be blogging for a few days. So...don't miss me !! =)

2009-04-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

Lol...im gonna have PANDA EYES lol ..seriously not enough sleep ! i dun think i ever will have enough sleep even if i sleep forever..=) lol.. anyway HAPPY BELATED B'DAY CHERLYN !! <3.
Lol...being lazy this days... very lazy xD ...anyway went hiking with Shaun yesterday ... stamina-less already.. sad haha....its my second time hiking this year...worst haha...and scHool's starting already! like next next monday ! and driving exams just soon !! shit am i gonna F ! i dun wan to ..just hope i'll P ! I CANT EVEN SAY IT OUT. SCARY !! DARNN !! And its 4 more days to Hong KonG !! I cant wait ! LALALA !! But time flies fast though !! its like more than one month since i'm back. really fast but torturing slow not to mention BORING ! Anyway need to get my brains working again if not Phaik Zhen will kill me...BRB!

Penang Hill. =)

2009-04-27T22:14:00.005+08:00

Penang Hill

Durian, the caretaker's dog. Scary barking but doesnt chaSe ppl. If it did, i'd be DEAD!

No idea what this is but its taken from up there. Dunno which part of Penang this is.

PRETTY !!!

Us just taking pictures !

Look what the tree decided to do to my hand. Oh well!!

2009-04-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

Lol..life's pretty weird this days. not really.
if u have a mum like mine or a family like mine u would understand.
they just drive me crazy. GOD!!
thank goodness im out this few days although those times at home were pretty horrible.boring. blalabla....
if only it was that easy..uh-huh.
whatever.
f F f F f F f F f F f F f F f F f F f F.
suddenly amused with the letter f.
of all letters.
aahh...im not sane anymore i guess.
gone crazyyyyyyy.

2009-04-17T22:23:00.003+08:00

Lol..life cudn get any better..can it?
Suddenly so busy with stuff
i dun even have time to breathe..at all.
anyways...went for my second driving lesson which was awesomely cool.
cause i get to drive all the way to gurney drive. wee !!
it was so fun lol...after many million years of waiting i get to drive down that road.
haha..too much drama.
anyway..went out and hang out with sis, pras and shaun again at Coffee Island, their fav place yesterday night till midnite i guess..And Shaun said i look like Avril..just without the eyeliner. I take that as a compliment. duhh.. and he's gonna be sharing his info bout sports and fitness with me cuz he claims his a pro in that field. Yeah and my sis got all so crazy yesterday and they start playing I spy...lol weirdd..anyway did have lotsa fun.
I need to watch my TRUE BLOOD SERIES. Yeah i just know that the police are catching people who have pirated dvd's or whatsoever and now we cant buy it..LAME !! No wonder everyone staying under the same roof with me are busy and crazy downloading videos, movies and stuff... FYI Bittorrent is so DARN slow. aint wanna use it. na-ah..
anyways..its so boring now i guess i wanna repaint my nails..but i dun think i will cause im lazy. yeah and i abandoned my rubic's cube for a few days already. pityful lol...
anyway...im freaking tired and wish i can have alll the sleep i want.and like omg.i had a dirty dream last night.dun remind me.it's just a dreamm. chill!!

2009-04-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

Lol..its so tiring this few days lol.
Suddenly so many things to do...
Have to work, teach tuition and choreograph dance and stuff.. lol
anyway beter than doing nothing at all.
Lol..i just realised im so gonna get killed.
I lost the popular card which is so not mine.
Its mine goddad.so dead.
anyway went with Jan (sis friend) to popular today to get stuff.
And she belanja-ed me mcd..yay !! haha
went back and slept like a pig.
then have to wake up from my pretty beautiful sleep and teach tuition to my neighbour's son.
lol..the things they are learning this days...
anyway...i need to get my brains working..
busy busy busy...lol
think think think*
Brain block.
Wanna wake up early tomoorow to watch TRUE BLOOD (that vampire show...omg !! )

2009-04-13T20:22:00.003+08:00

Lol
This is freaking absurb!
Its just so boring tht I followed Pei Wen's advice to go try MEETOTO !
Haha funny lol.
Ns friend once told me its about some singing thing but i kinda forgotten till now.
Lol. Went to Gurney after church yesterday with sis and her friends. I made a new friend, Shaun. which i call him Mark Lee cause he looks like that singaporean actor. anyway...dragged them to chilis. And they should thank me for that cause they enjoyed the food although they dun wanna admit it.haha then went to buy STPM books [that what actually my main objective if not i wudn follow them]..and..i bought Rubic's Cube !! OMG..Im so excited, spend the whole night trying to figure it out by looking up the internet but i guess im dumb.haha..even my cousin, aaron (thanks lots!) send me the video but i still dun get it..sigh... !@#$%^&*
Ive got so many things to complain about but forget it lol.
Just dying bored.

2009-04-11T18:51:00.003+08:00

Lol.
Been so lazy to write lately.
Nothing exciting i guess.
Its just boring.
Went out with Stef yesterday night to watch He's not that into you.
Boring show. Haha..
Then went to disturb Tony awhile lol.
Reach home like 12 sumting.
Thank God my parents were already asleep and did not kill me..YET.
Had fun anyways rather than just staying at home.
Today was just a lazy day. AGAIN.
Had my first driving lesson at 4 today.
Lets just say I DIN CRASH THE CAR INTO PIECES...........YET!
I survived!! Thank God! wee~
But i think the instructor's scared of my driving. so am i =)
anyway...driving test is like on 12 May !!
And form 6 starts on 11 May.
Not even a week at school and i have to skip.
well...whatever =)
anyway. i always feel like writing a personal private diary.
like hand-write it.
but i guess im just too lazy. who cares?
Lol..Godmum complained that i dyed my hair cause it has so many colours.
But i honestly didnt..at all.
I wish I could cause i wan it to be naturally PURPLE but its not.
Uhhuh and thats about it I guess.
Just bored to death.
I misss Coffee Bean's hot chocolate....tempting lol.

2009-04-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

Lol...life is just so weird!
Im now addicted to Rubic's cube.
Yeah even though i dunoo how to do it.
I dun think i can solve it tilll the day i die.
Yeaps...and i cant do it now
cause i broke it.
yeeahh..if anyone finds out im so dead!
well it was just some fustration over notgetting that part to move
so u know..just a lil extra force
and it broke.
aint my fault..lalala~
anyway..just painted my nails purple! it was already painted purple like since i came bec from ns
but i LOVE this purple.its darker and shinier...lol...im a PURPLE OBSSESS PERSON ! DARN!
Work the whole day today...kinda worn off~

2009-04-06T23:05:00.003+08:00

Lol. hate mondays..always boring.

Don't ask why!

I cant wait to study.

Feel like going to popular and just grab all those form 6 books from the shelf and take it home.

Yeaps...im dying boredd at home!

Been watching THE BIGGEST LOSER lately.
kinda addicted to it.

Its this reality show where REALLY FAT AND OBESE people spend their time on that BEAUTIFUL RANCH to WORKOUT and then get slim ..yeahhh

kinda cool...i like the place.

i dun mind joining it.

the gym is like damn BIG !!

and the trainers are like so hot !

haha...they are like my inspiration or something.

I mean seriously. one day they are like so FAT.

and after 12 weeks..POOF !! thinner...really thin.

like they lose around 100 pounds too..i want that =)

okay i should stop crapping already. lalala

2009-04-04T20:52:00.002+08:00

Time... goes... slowly now, in my life
Fear... no more... of what I'm not sure

Searching to feel your soul
The strength to stand alone
The power of not knowing
and letting go
I guess I've found my way
It's simple when your trapped
Feeling lucky just to be here tonight,
and happy just to be me and be alive

Love, in and out
of my, my heart
And though life, can be strange
I can't be afraid

I guess I've found my way
It´s simple when it's right
Feeling lucky just to be here tonight
And happy... just to be me... and be... alive....

2009-04-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

The Climb [Miley Cyrus]

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on
Cause...

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

2009-04-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

Lol. woke up darn early today...
after a sleepless night again.
if i continue having imsomnia im gonna go crazy.
Ahhh...
Clean the house today. Sis friends came over to eat.
Yeaps...practically din do anything much today.
Lazy to go exercise..haha
Never mind...its just for today =)
Sleeepyy..........

2009-04-01T23:19:00.002+08:00

Lol.woke up at 9 today. damn early for me..yeahh
didnt had great sleep last night...whole body pain and a bit of fever i guess..
as well as flu...darn!
anyway..piano after months was like shit ! yeapsss
then went to gurney lol.
watch The Unborn..yeah horror movie and its 18pl.
omg its like so exciting to watch and above 18 movie LEGALLY !!
haha..was in the cinema alone and i practical din watch the whole show not even half.
it was darn scary...i had to to put earphones in my ears on the music loudly and play Jetris on my hp..yeahh...creepy!
Then met up with Stef for awhile. Went to elements to try out some clothes and take pictures with her new cam ~ lol.
Went to COFFEE BIN ~ Cant resist THEIR irresistable HOT CHOCOLATE~
After that went to youth park with sis.
Decided to go hiking while she dunno do what with her friends la...haha
Finally decided to take SCIENCE stream for form 6.. [just kill me]
i was standing in front of the stpm rack in popular looking thru the books and i was like oh well.. i'll take science bcause bio looks okay..physics too. MATHS definitely ! But chemistry..omg..dun make me do it..there's physical chemistry {what-the-hell is that??], organic chemistry and inorganic chemistry [clueless...].sadly..its compulsary..whatever!! thinking about it is just impossible. but im not gonna spend my life doing accounts because i dun understand a single thing starting with assets. dumb~

2009-03-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

Lol. woke up early today..at 11 in the morning =)
Nah i din sleep that long...AGAIN.
Slept at maybe 4 something AGAIN after playing Jetris for a dozen times.
And my freaking back is aching....DARN the sleeping bag.
Went to Prangin today just to shop alone.
Every girl needs to SHOP right..
Went home and then swim. Read magazine. Take care of sis by taking her swimming.
Watch Oprah Winfrey. Love her show albeit my sister hates her for no reason.
Kinda interesting haha. How should i know?
Because it tempted my mum to watch it too. =)
something about mental disorders (OCD) or something.
Imagine people..people scared of toilets !! like OMG.. germs, food (omg i would die if i was scared of food....she thinks its poison !), death and etc...like yeahh.. Fascinating!
Now I'm freaking bored yeah as usual.
And darn i have piano class tomorrow! imagine 3 whole months of not a single classs was like HEAVEN...back to class means torture..its like in a torture chamber.I'd rather eat VEGGIE for the rest of my life.( OMG did i just say that? eww...)Anyway, my mum would kill me if she read this. Its not something I'm proud of..but i hate classes ! and the exams. DARN.. last year's exam was the first time i failed an exam..SUCKS man..its not that i hate piano or anything. I love music and all but i hate it if i was FORCED to do it. Yeah...ludicrous.

2009-03-28T21:56:00.004+08:00

she decided she was a BIG gurl now. yeah
she came over our room to sleep.
obviously, she slept at the mattress. MY mattress
which means i have to sleep on the floor.
it took her one hour to sleep.
one LONG hour.
it was peaceful.
i decided that she was everything i had left.
because she was. and is everything i have now.
she was my only baby sister. okay.
Younger sister~ <3
i couldn't sleep.
darn it.
as usual, i toss and turn
tired. that was how i feel
but my brain wouldnt surrender to my tiredness.
i keep thinking the unthinkable. past memories.
about everything. the old house my grandma used to live in.
everything.but it was so dark.
i took out my handphone and played Jetris
for God knows how long.
well...i guess i didnt sleep till 7 in the morning.
i keep waking up to look over her.
to make sure she was comfortable.
she's sleeping with me again tonight.
and God knows what time i will sleep today.
But who cares? I dun mind..never did..

2009-03-27T17:11:00.002+08:00

Today...was just like any other day.
But something was different.
Utterly different.
She felt in her spirit. Her soul.
Prominent to her.
Her life was coming back.
Not fully.not partially. but just a tiny quarter of it.
Like any other days...she woke up after 12 noon.Again
After having a sleepless night, tossing and turning
Rustling under her blanket hugging her teddy bear.
Surprisingly, the medicine she thought would slap her into dreamland
had not work a single spell on her.
She had everything planned out the next day.
To visit the beach was on the top of her list.
She would go to the beach.Alone.Period.
Now at 5.15pm her plans dashed in front of her.
Heavy downpours, dark clouds.
It had been grey the whole day. Thunder.
Waiting for the rain to come.
But it never happened. Until she was so sure her plan would work
It came.
But being enthusiastic, she marched to the gym.
Sweat trickle down her neck. Her face.
After an averagely-satisfied workout, she returned the key to the manager
to find herself being questioned by the manager.
"Are you Felix's daughter? You must be. You look a little like him."
Flattered and stunned, she replied, "Yes I am. But we don't look alike, At least thats what people told me."
Raindrops kept pouring.
She couldnt think of anything to do.
She stares at her sister's notebook and began to sign into her blog.
And so here she is blogging and waiting for the rain to stop.
The other side of her has an outraging urge to swim or maybe to walk. Under the rain.
But being crowded with the thoughts of normal people starring at a maniac teenage under the rain stopped her.
"Oh well", she thought. "I shall just have to wait for the rain.
Then again, I might be lazy and rather sit back and engross myself into Sophie Hannah's book again. The point of no rescue."=)

2009-03-26T22:37:00.002+08:00

She stares at the skies..watching the clouds without a single blink.
Thoughts were running in circles in her head
but it was blank.
Her soul lost somewhere far she could not find.

What would you do if your life was in a mess?
What would you do if the person staring in front of the mirror was someone you never seen before?
What would you do if you lost your best friend
and its all because of your own bloody fault?
What would you do if you wanted to die but was meant to live?
What would you do when nothing goes right in your life?
What would you do if you're the only person you could turn to?

2009-03-26T16:20:00.003+08:00

Lol..finish reading THE PACT by JODI PICOULT..Lol..damn nice !! sighh.. i finish it. anyway next book ! The Point Of Rescue by Sophie Hannah

Slept at 1 something and woke up at 1 something this "morning". That was 12 hours of sleep. Din know that eating 2 spoons of cough medicine could have such an effect. i din even wake up at 9 something like i do everyday because of the naggings and screamings of mum and sis. cool man!! lol..went to watch tv. yeaps...Perfect Stranger was on 411..

After that..it was like dead bored. So i went swimming alone. Kinda peaceful.nice.calming.

Everyone's busy college-ing or studying...sighh...that leaves me dying of boredom.

2009-03-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

I'm With You [Avril Lavigne]

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cause nothing's going right and
Everythings a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

Why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind

The Pact [ just finish reading] damn nice !

2009-03-25T22:03:00.001+08:00

There was nothing left to say.
He covered her body with his, and as she put her arms
around him she could picture him in all his incarnations:
age five, and still blond; age eleven, sprouting; age
thirteen, with the hands of a man. The moon rolled,
sloe–eyed in the night sky; and she breathed in the
scent of his skin."I love you,"she said.
He kissed her so gently she wondered if she had
imagined it. She pulled back slightly, to look into his
eyes.
And then there was a shot.

2009-03-25T02:23:00.003+08:00

great ..its 2.24am and i cant sleep. scared to sleep. scared to close my eyes. scared to dream. scared i will be hunt by nightmares. scared to wake up again.

trying to find a blood-shedding game to play. yeahh particularly the ones where we get to shoot stickman and the blood splatters everywhere like crazy. yeaps.. haah damn its loading so long. meanwhile arguing with my new-found cousin [ yeaps i din knew i had that cousin till i found him..okay he found me in ns...cool huh..we were both in the same ns camp] whether mona lisa has a price or not. like does it cost a fortune just for that picture. of course it does..haha and talking to zhi wei [ku lu tou]...talking him into blogging..but he doesnt want..and he's sot ! bathing so late at night lol..anyway..its taking forever to load that stickman game gosh..feel like just playing my brother's games...hold the thought. TOO VIOLENT ~ =)

anyway games gonna start so...till then =)

2009-03-24T20:55:00.002+08:00

currently reading :

currently playing:

currently feeling :

currently wants to :

Misfit by Lesley Roy

2009-03-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

You never close your eyes
You never sleep at night
You are an emotional nightmare
You are a misfit
You like to hurt yourself
And you don't know why
You're trapped inside your own hell
No one else knows your name

See the misfit in the mirror
See the freak that lives inside
See the misfit in the mirror cry
See the one nobody wanted,
Shattered by a world of lies
See the misfit in the mirror die

You always crash your car,
You're like a permanent scar,
You're just a walking disaster
You are the opposite of moving faster
When you've pushed around,
When all your walls fall down
And when they call you misfit it's so hard to stop the rage

See the misfit in the mirror
See the freak that lives inside
See the misfit in the mirror cry
See the one nobody wanted,
Shattered by a world of lies
See the misfit in the mirror die

I see you and I see everything that I hate
Darkness all around me, makes me suffocate

2009-03-24T20:23:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 11 something....actually earlier but i kept forcing myself back to sleep. i couldnt count how many times i had bad dreams or nightmares whatever you call it. it was all so dark and terrifying..obviously walking on a dark road where the skies turn black not excluding the ocean...its like one of those days you would call END TIMES. woke up and cook BRUNCH for myself...then caught a bus to batu ferringghi to HAPPY FEET for and interview. met qiu lin there. Lucky me the boss couldnt turn up but anywhere hand out with qiu lin there for at least two hours...had fun..really did...Jireh was just so cute tody lol...

was about to start playing Nancy Drew when sis wanted to go out. so i followed her. while she was working i hang out myself at COFFEE BEAN in island plaza.sat there reading the book i was so caught into for a few hours...i love spending quality time with myself. its like heaven..not really..but just me.peaceful.quiet.no one bothering me. but just at that thought. ME. my life sucked like HELL ! Getting worst every day...i ran away from the ppl who cared for me .loved me. ppl who were so close to me. WERE. that was months ago. but i couldnt help it. SHIT I know im emo..so what?? damn ! sigh........two words to describe who i am now. I SUCK end of story.

got home.........got a msg from qiu lin saying i got the job...yeahh..i know i did. but so what?? talked to mum...she wouldnt let me..all the time she was talking i just kept my freaking mouth shut. yeah...dumb.not like i freaking care. i'd just be a daughter..the perfect daughter...yeah "perfect"...u say NO..I'll just follow. whatever. dont feel like working anyway... currently freaking broke so GODDDD !!! Please help me!! make the ns money come in ~ i cant wait !! im like declared bankrupt for goooodness sake! thank god i typed this in white where the whole screen is just white if not my sister would read this emo, rebellious yet useless blog.

forget what i feel. forget what i care. forget everything...i dont even know who i am right now. i dont know myself.i dunno whose that girl staring at me in the mirror.

2009-03-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

Woke up early today...visited the dentist, went to the doctor...then went prangin! lol... not exactly shopping though...haha..sis bought a shirt for me for my spm results lol..haha bought games to play, repair the hp. took passport pictures for the driving thingy....lalala met dad at prangin ! haha..

went home and played games the whole day...called stef and kristine to my house..had fun!! did some swimming and sauna~ lol...were suppose to lose some calories but we were munching mister potato and chacoas the whole way!! in the end we left half the container of mister potato in the middle of the pool because there was a grasshopper or was it a praying mantis on it ! anyway...had loads of fun with my gurls..

qiu lin's found me a job haha..at her working place lol...have to go for interview tomorrow so all the best to myself ! wee~

2009-03-22T22:36:00.001+08:00

Yeap. That's LIFE right now !! =)

todayy..=)

2009-03-19T22:55:00.002+08:00

lol..slept at 4 am yesterday..couldnt sleep..sigh...woke up at nearly 12...Cook !! haha yeah i cook !! weee~ and then eat of course! rest a lil while just chill and hear songs on astro...paint my nails..haha black and purple~

went out with qiu lin~ we din know where to go at first. Mich told us to enjoy our directionless outing..yeahh~ haha went to gurney again haha...met Mira outside sunrise mcd lol..sat at coffee bean while waiting for stef~ meanwhile...qiu lin said the wifi can use so we surf the internet using our handphones..yeah HANDPHONES..AND WE THOUGHT IT WAS FREE lesson #999999999999 NOTHING IS FREE =) So..we were happily surfing till my credit went from like 7 something to -0.00 DARN IT !

anywhere stef came so we went to the CHICKEN RICE SHOP and eat...not bad ! haha then we went to mcd to get some ice cream ! YUM! then we went to elements to try out some clothess..omg i love the shades haha !! then we went home ~ lalala

anyway 3 of us made up our mind to exercise starting next week ! yeaps..swimming, hiking, jogging...we HAVE TO !! i cant wait !! aahh...

lol..was just thinking i dun wanna study in penang..lol...of course studying in penang means form 6 sigh..not that i want it that badly..just following family's decision..anyway... [[[ SHIT ! my mum just read through this blog i think.. DAMN IT !! ]]] anyway..its too late to apply for anything else and with such worst results even darn harder...lol.life sucks...regret i din apply for matriculation...duhhh

anyway..off for youth camp tomorrow..lol til then...

oh well...

2009-03-19T01:30:00.002+08:00

18 March went out with sis and goddad. went to borders, queensbay. bought books to read. Finally. Ate at secret recipe..LASAGNE and HOT CHOCOLATE !! Too bad i din bring my cam lol..so no pictures...anyway..been editing my NEW blogpage since i came back!! took me hours...thanks to KEAN YANG who helped me loads !! haha my mentor lol..anyway..im getting somewhere with my blog !

seriously....cant let depression kick in again lol..gotta chill and hang out..called qiu lin to go hang out tomorrow..some place we haven't decided yet...better then staying at home....rotting and sleeping..oh well..

its 1.35 am and i dunno why im still awake...eyes are seriously closing but my brains still active...geee....sucks!!! so here i am blogging and chatting...wasting my time....

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY AHH!!! I RINDU YOU BNYK BNYK !!! RINDU LOTEY !! ure 18 already !! my BIG SISTER !!! MWahhhh !!!!

Thinking Out Loud - Lesley Roy

2009-03-17T21:41:00.001+08:00

I’ve been losing my mind
I’ve been living a lie
I’ve been running away
For so long
I try to put on a face
And cover my heart
But I’m needing it now
So bad

I don’t know
How I feel
Maybe I’m mad
Or maybe I’m proud
Can’t find the truth
Can’t speak my mind
Don’t know what I'll say
I’m just thinking out loud
Thinking out loud

No, no I cant explain
What’s happened to me
I feel like I’m right
And wrong
Inside everything’s upside down
Everything’s spinning around
And it’s freaking me out

I don’t know
How I feel
Maybe I’m mad
Or maybe I’m proud
Can’t find the truth
Can’t speak my mind
Don’t know what I'll say
I’m just thinking out loud

If only for a day
I could be free
I bet you’d feel the same
If you were me
I’m gonna spit it out
Just let go
I’ve been losing my mind
I’ve been living a lie
I’ve been running away
For so long

I don’t know
How I feel
Maybe I’m mad
Or maybe I’m proud
Can’t find the truth
Can’t speak my mind
I don’t know what I'll say
I’m just thinking out loud
I’m thinking out loud
Thinking out loud
Can’t find the truth
Can’t speak my mind
I don’t know what I'll say
I’m just thinking out loud

life after ns....

2009-03-16T20:28:00.004+08:00

its been 5 days since i'm back..and i can say IM DYING OF FREAKING BOREDOME! Grr..

11 March came back at 10 something?? lol...feeling Ns-sick already...aahh...

12 March Results came out...damn was it like SHIT ! Everyone seems to be ok with it but im not..it sucks !! cant get that straoght a's for my parents...shit it! aahh... went to Ananda and ate woth qiu lin, charlene and her bf.. went to gurneyy..was about to go home when qiu lin came so we decided to watch Marley & Me.. haha...bought a celcom number anyway..lalala

13 March Damn freaking bored..turning into an anti-social freak !! shit it..dont feel like talking to anyone..BLACK BLACK BLACK

14 March Damn lazy.....godparents took us to eat somewhere...lol..

15 March went for driving theory..boy was it boring...lol slept at 9 pm wake up at 10 pm to eat pizza then went back to sleep.zzzzzzzzzzz

16 March woke up at nearly 11 ? ate breakfast and went back to sleep again till 3pm..gosh im like a pig !! went to cut hair, came back iron clothes and sleep again..wanted to exercise but it was raining..haha.... im freaking boreddd....wat am i to do ?!?!?!

Sweetest Memories~ Mwaahh

2009-03-11T21:06:00.017+08:00

2009-03-11T20:54:00.002+08:00

Back from NS =( T.T
I dont wanna come back sighh!!
tiba-tiba tak mau pulang =)
i misss Ahh !!
I MISSS MY KOCIK <3!!>
i misss my dorm bed!.
i misss my hectic schedule there.
i misss my simple and problemless life thr!
i misss white resort.
I misss NS !!
I misss my Hornet gurls..buddies =)
Time flies so fast !!
Sedihnya...lol

2009-01-31T10:53:00.001+08:00

Back to NS again. =)
40 days to go...i'll enjoy every moment of it. =)
wish it would never end. =(

Pudar.

2009-01-29T15:03:00.000+08:00

Kurasakan pudar dalam hatiku
Rasa cinta yang ada untuk dirimu
Kulelah dengan semua yang ada
Inginku lepas semua

Setan dalam hati ikut bicara
Bagaimana kalau kuselingkuh saja
Kupunya banyak teman lelaki
Sepertinya kukan bahagia

Mestinya kau cari pengganti diriku saja
Karena kita sudah tak saling bicara
Pastikan cerita tentang kita yang telah lalu
Hanya ada dalam ingatan hatimu

Maafkan aku jika kau kecewa
Bintangmu bukanlah untuk diriku
Jika memang semua kan jadi cerita
Kutahu kau semakin terluka

*i love this song. damn popular song in Ns haha...=) I MISS NS XD

Back

2009-01-26T17:10:00.002+08:00

Finally back from Ns............for a moment.
Hows life so far in NS??
Well FANTASTIC !!
Hate the morning roll calls and the night wans but all in all its great!!
Met really new freinds ...malaysa, chinese , indianss whatever racess...
kinda cool there...the people there are just lovely.. =)
first few days there it was awesome hard cause practically every chinese knows how to speak mandarin and they do talk in mandarin..EXCEPT ME =)
lol..at least im learning some chinese now..haha and some bahasa kampung too =)
and at least i found other chinese who doesnt know how to speak chinese either...lol..
ITS SO FUN there.....lol....not to mention the tiredness and the lack of sleep ... lol
kinda miss it there already...
BUT I MISS MY BFFS HERE IN PENANG MORE..CANT WAIT TO SEE THEM SOON =)
gonna have a date with stef soon.we'll be taking rapid all over penang lol...just the two of us =)
Well people say i got fatter [fitter] xD haha and darker...lol not really ...hope not...waaa..............
thought the food there would suck but Damn THE FOOD CAN BE EATEN..xD
My bro and sis are like asking me everyday WHAT HAVE NS DONE TO ME? Cause of the weird unusual things im doing like hearing malay songs??? haha...lol...
its just sucha awesome experience...=)
dont regret going there...
cant wait to go back too this sunday..haha
just SHUT MY MOUTH xD

2008-12-28T00:15:00.001+08:00

away to NS ..finally =) miss me when i'm gone. xD

BFF'S

2008-12-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

Lol...i miss them so muchh !! am going to miss them more...xD

2008-12-09T21:30:00.007+08:00

7 December 2008 Sunday

Ohkay..i cant wait cause id be sleeping over at darling weun's house.yeahh excited ! haha..after church cheah yeem fetch me to wuen's house..haha SO NOT A PEMANDU BERHEMAT !!! HAHAHA....showing hand gestures plus scolding and honking people is NO GOOD YOU KNOW !! haha...had loads of fun...then with loo we went to Queensbay....window shopping...hahah and walking..its been years since i been to queensbay..(actually months) haha....going home, we took pictures under the rain haha..it was awesome! =) we look like a bunch of crazy siao i-would-die-without-rain humans....xD

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY !! FUN ! FUN! FUN!

Then we went to wuen's house..and the rest was history..haha...MEMORIES LOL..

What I did the pass few days..to pass by time.

2008-12-05T21:27:00.005+08:00

Watch Kung Fu Dunk just now...haha..totally awesome ! Jay Chou was just so yeng....*drools*omg....i cant get over it. =)

Just watch Ah Long Pte Ltd 2 days ago..omg it was so damn funny...make me smile and laugh after a moody day..xD

Been reading Diary of a Crush...haha it was nice though! but twilight's nicer ! this is so 18PL..haha OR WAS IT 18SG?? Whatever it is...its an above 18 rating book..haven's read the third book though and just finish the second one today..DAMN INTERESTING XD

2008-12-05T20:15:00.005+08:00

4 December 2008

SLEPT AT 11.30 PM THE NIGHT BEFORE....BUT THEN WAKE UP AT 2 AM =)...WAS ONLINING AND THEN SLEPT BACK AT 4 AM... WAS SUPPOSE TO WAKE UP AT 8AM BUT THEN CUDN GET MY BONES TO GET UP SO SLEPT THRU TIL 9AM ! DAMN !! AND YEAH MUM ACTUALLY ASK ME NOT TO GO TO GP BUT I WANT TO AND I DID! LOL...AND SHE WANTS ME TO GO TO CAMERON WITH THE WHOLE FAMILY ON SUNDAY..I HATE IT !! ITS DAMN COLD THERE AND I MIGHT JUST COME BACK A SNOWMAN IF IM NOT FROZE TO DEATH THERE...GRRR..TALK ABOUT ROLLER COASTER MOODS..I WAS THAT CLOSE[EVEN CLOSER] TO SAYING THAT F WORD BUT THANK GOD...I CONTROLLED MYSELF.SIGH...OHMM OHMM OHMM...IT'LL BE SUCHA BUSY DAY ! THERE'S DENTIST APPOINTMENT AND THN HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL..LOL..I WAS ACTUALLY 2 HOURS LATE WHEN I REACH SCHOOL BUT WHO CARES ?? HAHA..MET AH LOO ! YAY ! THN WENT TO GP !! FIONE, MICH AND STEF WERE WAITING FOR ME ~ HAHA...THN WE MET MS.ABC WHICH WE WERE TRYING TO RUN AWAY FROM.HAHA...ALL BECAUSE OF STEF LA..BUT IT WAS FUN. WERE SUPPOSE TO WATCH TWILIGHT AT 11.50 AM... BUT WE WERE IN A HURRY TO GO IN AND WAITED OUTSIDE THE CINEMA SINCE 11.35AM ..NOT BECAUSE WE WERE EXCITED TO WATCH TWILIGHT [[ALTHOUGHT I THINK THAT TICKET GUY THINKS WE ARE CRAZY ABOUT TWILIGHT WHICH WAS EXTREMELY TRUE] BUT WE HAD TO RUN AWAY FROM MS.ABC. HAHA...AND FIONE PESTERED THE GUY TO LET US IN EARLY BUT NO LUCK..HAHA. AT 11.45 AM SHARP THE LIGHTS OF CINEMA NO.10 LIGHTED UP AND WE RUSHED IN !! HAHA...

twilight was just so awesome ! it was super awsome !! omg....so DARN SWEET ! haha...i still cant get over it...if only vampires existed...xD im not gonna start my craziness again so....im just gonna shut up haha..BUT amzaingly the father, Carlisle was damn cuter !! more entau then edward...*melts* and alice looks like one of the Cats in the Musical Cats cause they have the same hairstyle..I LOVE HER HAIR THOUGH! AND THEY ARE NOT OVERLY-BLEECHED ! XD

THEN WE WENT TO NANDO'S HAHA...AND WE WENT TO TRY ON SOME SHOES[ACTUALLY STEF] THEN WE WENT TO MEGA Q! SAT THERE AND TALK..HAHA...SOME PPL WERE PLAYING SNOOKER LOL...AND WE WERE JUST CHILLING OUT TAKING PICS AS USUAL. HAHA THN ME AND MICH WENT BACK TO HER HOUSE BY BUS THN I HAD TO GO FIND MY PARENTS..LOL...ANYWAY ALL THOSE WALKING IN MY FLATS REALLY DID KILL MY LEGS..ITS LIKE SO FREAKING PAIN LOL..BUT WHO CARES ?? AT LEAST I HAD FUN! HAHA..BETTER THN STAYING AT HOME.=) NOW I REALLY WANNA WATCH QUARANTINE. SERIOUSLY!!

in conclusion! i love twilight.IM CRAZY ABOUT IT. AND I WISH VAMPIRES DO EXIST. =)

SWEET MEMORIES =)

2008-12-04T23:32:00.007+08:00

GURNEY 03-12-08

The lavendar tea at Winter Warmers...taste weird..=)

Our handphones..haha...

Gosh....ah loo went missing!

The glass jug where they put the lavendar tea...such a beauty =)

The lavendar cake ??? haha....it was yummy xD

The cute kitchen set served in Winter Warmers.

Just chilling...xD

Haha....we were vandalizing at Pizza Hut

Wuen and cheah yeem...xD..those crazy buffalos haha

The black pan which wuen was so fascinated of...haha

Pepperoni Pizza..My Favourite!! Yum Yum !

Fione, Mich and me hanging out in the ladies =)

Mich and me.=)

BFF's of a lifetime.

Toilet..toilet..toilet..

me and mich trying out clothes at Niche..

Cheese!

We love clothes!

Ta daa!!

Huggss..

I love that purple dress!!

supermodels..yeah we wish!

OHM...BOO!

JUST HANGING OUT TOGETHER..XD

OMG The shirt at Niche. Read it ! " Dogs are forever..boys are whatever!" HAHA....WHY DOGS??? I PREFER THE OpPoSITE =)

THAT SHIRT WHICH DRIVE BOYS CRAZY..HAHA..REAL CRAZY XD

Again..us vaining xD

Baby June. xD

2008-12-03T22:09:00.005+08:00

0mg and you know what i met my niece and nephew yesterday !! this is so exciting..i dunno my nephew's name but my niece is called JUNE. aww so sweet...

This is June sleeping on my bed. !! omg...She has so much hair..when i was 4 i dun even had that much hair..imagine that..lol.she's just so sweet....*melts* just so adorable yet cute....*blink blink*

FEELING LIKE A ROLLER COASTER..

2008-12-03T21:28:00.004+08:00

Ohkay..lets talk about Sunday..

nothing special.....just bored..went to eat at chopper board with Amber, Kim, Bern and C.Seng...pretty fun...then hang out awhile with Stef..lol...then went on my own for a walking spree !! haha..just dun feel like going home. went to FACESHOP and bought mask. lol..so UNLIKE me !! duhh..i dun even know how to use it yeahh..but who cares??ive been wanting to buy it since spm cause damn! spm causes stress!! and i bought yellow nail polish which im so excited about..cause i wanted to paint my nails with bright colours and figured out yellow wud be perfect! lol...

Monday...was so awesome BORING...

Tuesday... was suppose to go out with Cherlyn to watch twilight but she cant make it..lol..anyway when i was sleeping, mum woke me up and told me to do the housework..u know..hang the clothes....keep the clothes...fold the clothes...I DID IT ALL !! Haha..then i have to iron the clothes...which i did from 2pm til 6.30 pm..all the clothes !! and its a lot cause ure ironing it for like 6 ppl in the family. although i dun think its quite neat and seem *ironed* haha...anyway at least i finish it !! haha u know BOREDOM REALLY KILLS...And doing housework just minus the boringness....

Lol at night mum gave me a lecture about piano...blahblahblah...i really do HATE PIANO..not that i hate playing it..i just hate going classes and practising...and if that was not enough in the morning teacher called me and told me to practice..yeahhh....bet they pakat earlier a d..sigh...make my whole day worst...yeah i cudn sleep the whole night....and it really pisses me off that i coudn find my eye cover..that says LEAVE ME ALONE...darn it ! so i cudn realy slp and tears were like watering my eyes..well the eyes really know went to leak cause my eyes were like so dry and a lil puddle could help.

Wednesday.....UNDANG TEST DAY !! you know...i really do misss my egg sandwich yeah the one that i make! so i woke up early and did it...lol YUMMY !! and then went for undang test. the night before i practice twice and both times ive got 90%. i felt like i could just die you know. haha but it was cool..in the room where we did the test we were all asking each other how to do..haha...well i ask that one girl one question cause she asked me...haha...and haha there was just this guy that was just so funny...he sat there so long and after i finish he still did not..i think he used all the time given to him and he failed.lol..sad....and this other guy..Delon is his name and i guess he is 16 he failed by 1 mark..that sucks sighhh....and thn there was this other guy he failed 4 times already..its just so SCARY !! it feels worst thn spm....really..lol..but in the end i pass !! wee..got 90% again..lol...isit just FATE?? hahah bet it was the consistency..consistent but not accurate..oh god !! im crapping physics !

Wednesday (Later on)..feeling emo the whole day..just darn moodlesss...maybe its just pms-ing lol and when i got home...no one opened the door for me.. i know something is wrong cux i see shadows in the house but still no one..when i callled no one pick up..so i went walking round the apartment and sat downstairs near the swimming pool to read my book. thn i called my sis and she answered and DAMN! SHE WAS IN THE HOUSE.....lol..i was just so pissed.....pissed at everything..and i was just this close to say that F word you know..i really felt like it..but nahh...it just cudn come out from my mouth..and i dun ever never ever wanna say it.

so when i got home..i know the actual story..so i was just so moodless i decided to watch the AH LONG PTE LTD movie....omg it make me laugh !!! it really was funny !! that really make my day..then i felt like going gp so i went...i thought i was gonna be alone but then lucky me !! mich, jin eu and fione was there....so i wasnt alone ..hahaa.... mich and i went to try some clothes on at NICHE..it was awesome...haha then i was just standing at the centre of gp..spying on my lil bro with his sweet gf...hahaha..cant help it !! its just so exciting !! lol....

then met up with wuen and cheah yeem..we went to PIZZA HUT and it..haha....fun !!! it was just so damn CRAZY !! on the way back to gp i was bullied..like i was gona get rape or something.i just keep on shouting and keep on saying GO !!! AWAY FROM ME !!! WITH MY FINGERS POINTING...[word of the day : GO!] haha...and we were like walking in the MIDDLE of the road..it was just so funny when cars were on the road we scrambled to the side to SAVE OUR LIVES...But as i always say " Look at the speed of the cars you also know la you wun die wan" duhh... haha

then loo came..and we went to winter warmers and drank the lavender tea and ate lavender cake while wuen was bitching about some ppl.hahhahaa funny...then we took a lil pictures...lol...then we went to BIG APPLE and bought donuts...cool mann !! then cheah yeem fetch us home..haha

I FEEL SO TEMPTED TO EAT THE DONUTS SO.......*MUNCH* *MUNCH* *MUNCH*

Today..awesome Boring =) yet Fun!

2008-11-29T20:23:00.005+08:00

Lol.....today was just awesome BORING..................had to wake up at 6 todaY..but i woke up at 6.40 which gives me 20 minutes to get ready to go out by 7 aahhh...RUSH HOUR....

went to the undang seminar..LOL...IT WAS JUST SO DMAN BORING AND COLD ESPECIALLY!! I ALMOST FREEZED TO DEATH !!! LITERALLY.....ANYWAY..AS SOON AS IT WAS OVER..I WAS SO HAPPY!!

When we got back...stef and me decided to take some pictures...apparently she wants to make Qiu Lin jealous..Hahha..cause i know stef !! You're jealous we took that pictures on thursday without you ..aint it true ??

Pictures of 27.11.208.

2008-11-29T19:42:00.006+08:00

Mich and Est.....Our pendent lol..aint it cute??? haha..

OMG ..What's with the fingers ?!?!

Us looking bored...Qiu Lin giving that Look. -)

OMG ! Wat was i doing ?? Guess i just embarassed myself...Gosh!

Friends for eternity. =]

Ohkay....Charlene pushing us down...No wonder QL's stunted and i can't grow tall-ER. =) Look at Qiu Lin's reaction...hahah..PIG!

Est and QL...Lol...my longest bestest friend since standard 6..=)

Just chilling out =)

Posing outside MNG'S..Lol

Tall...Taller...Tallest.

Random ..admiring our pictures in Qiu Lin's phone.

Lol....a glimpse of LIM YU ZHONG..Haha..that skinny brown guy standing there lol. Took from the first floor of Gurney.=)

Est and Darling Wuen. The person who understands me the MOST.

Stef my BFF !! <3

Posers hired by BREEKS. haha

At Manilla Place

Darling Wuen's Tom Yam Noodles..i think it is..-)

My Grilled Chicken..Its just DAMN BIG! Sighh...

Ice Cream for desert =) Yummy !!

Est, Wuen, Jes and Ade...Sofia's missing lol =(

Us......just hanging out in Manilla Place...

Ohkay..this is wat Jeslyn did to my fingers at Gurney...colourful ain't it ?? haha

Scooby Doo and Shaggy...just hanging out together...xD

Bluekss.......

Just look at US...haha...posers lol....

Blurr as usual Darling Wuen..........

The Oh-So-Chicky Mich..haha

GURNEY! ITS OVER!

2008-11-28T23:06:00.004+08:00

LOL...GUESS WHAT ?!?! ITS FINALLY OVER !! WEEE....HAHA...
OHKAY...

BIO WAS HORRIBLE...PHYSICS WAS EVEN WORST...BUT WHO CARES??? ITS OVER !! LOL

THURSDAY- 27TH NOVEMBER
At 3.30 am ....*yay* it's finally over..EST..haha..was the last subject..and definitely a good way to end all those misery cause it's MINE subjuct..duhh..after that went to register for undang with Stef ..haha..and Stef is goona love me so much for telling her a *secret* no one knows...lalala...anyway..went home and bathe then got ready for gurney !! met MICH !! OMG...Haha...the two of us just lost in gp....then we went to find Darling WUEN, Ade and Jes. we walk and walk and walk aimlessly..haha trying to CATCH line in gp....gurney have such bad reception DAMN..seriously.....then me and Mich got something cool !! haha a pendent for both of us with our names carved on it fr0ont and back..lol...YEAH MICH !! ILL TAKE IT WHEREVER I GO..TO NS TOO !! HAHA..BTW..IM WEARING IT NOW !! AND URS IS STILL HERE WITH ME !! Haha...then mich when home early..awww..leaving me alone...and then ********censored*********bla bla bla.....went to manilla place to eat...we were talking bout secondary life...haha..it was FUN lol...and cold !! haha..then OMG ME AND WUEN JOIN THE CRAZY FANS TO WATCH RYNN LIM YU ZHONG !! OMG...Im not really a big fan of his but ...He's a celebrity and he's cute !! haha....so now wuen knows who to call next time if she needs someone to accompany her...LOL.WE WERE JUST CRAZY...I was standing there for nearly half an hour just to grab a pic of him but damn! he walked too fast..haha..then went to find qiu lin and charlene and we posers...just took pictures..haha..haven't upload it yet to the com but soon....lol
anyway..

FRIDAY- 28th NOVEMBER
Woke up and went to piano early lol.....then went home and felt bored...JUST SO EMO TODAY.DUN FEEL LIKE TALKING TO ANYONE..HAIHZZZ...HATE THE *JUST LEAVE ME ALONE* FEELING....DAMN ..And my hand's still red for banging on the wall yesterday...grrr.pain....but anyway....i couldn't stand the messy-ness of my *sampah books* so i cleaned it up..and then i went to my room and i hated the sight of it..so MESSY !! so.....i clean it up..gave my room a makeover haha....all by myself...my sis din wanna help me...fine ! haha....from 12 til 4.30 i *changed* my room and throw a loadful of sampah..yay me !! haha im so happpy now !! then after that painted my nails..lol...sigh...im just so boredd....save me !!

NOW CURRENTLY IN AN EMO STATE..........................................................

excitements...

2008-11-24T17:43:00.002+08:00

23rd December
The flu hit me TERRIBLY. after church went for lunch with my daughter and son. Haha..and we say the...............MIX.FM ROADSHOW outside Dominoes Pizza. Wee !! i wanna see FLY.FM AND HITZ.FM TOO!! haha..then my son thought me and bern guitar..it was awesome.haha...really hard =( but addictive =) my finger hurt now...then went to...........SEGAFREDO with sylvia babe. haha... At night went out dinner-ing with mum and her friends. lol...sigh...10 chapters of Bio to finish. Dad,sis and bro came back from singapore late at night...sighh i wish i could go too ..sobs...

24th December
Bio bio bio.....JUST DIE ! lol...[if my mum sees this she's so gonna slaughter me].. that damn UMBILICAL CORD....i really have nothing to say..i spell it as UNBILIBICAL CORD !!! WTH ![ I think i miss reading the bible....=(]....lol.... and mich and stef just have to keep bullying me todat..AHAHA..TWILGHT TWLIGHT TWEE-LIGHT! especially MICH !! U BETER WATCH OUT IF URE READING THIS[ I KNOW U WILLL SOME DAY]..URE JUST GONNA GET IT FROM ME...KEEP SHOOTING ME LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS TODAY..HAH...EVIL !! BET URE SLEEPING RIGHT NOW !! HAHA.....and its such a sad sad thing u'd come back on the 27th december while i fly to NS on the 28th ..sobs..rmbr!! u have to drive all the way to BALIK PULAU to find me !!! HAHA....AND I'LL PRAY HARD THAT U'LL GET UR NS LETTER SOON !! U BETTER NOT GET 2ND BATCH AND LEAVE ME ALL ALONE....BOO HOO HOO..=( haha...and Stef..sorry was making ur head injured...that plaster on ur head was cute..haha..if only id take a picture of it.lol..You'd be okay...dun worry you dun have to shave ur head..haha..

And.................i got bec my hp today !! it was LOST actually STOLEN by SOME gurl...thank GOD they found it....if they dun its okay too.hahhaa... i just miss it !! sighh...Tomorrow's physics...PRAY HARD MAN ! and me and stef am going to register for the UNDANG TEST !! WEEE......ISHKK BECAUSE OF NS I CANT LEARN TO DRIVE IN TIME ..I HAVE TO WAIT TILL FREAKING MARCH AFTER NS....SIGH SIGH SIGH..

I JUST HAVE MANY THINGS I WANT AND NEED TO DO AFTER EXAMS..AND IM GONNA LIST THEM ALL OUT IN MY PLANNER NOW...PRIVATELY..HAHA....HOPEFULLY I CAN ACHIEVE THEM..WEE! TILL THEN...PHYSICS-ING SOON....................AFTER I WAKE UP FROM ZZZ-ING..XD

sigh..NS

2008-11-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

Lol....bec from where i end on the last last post...

22ND NOVEMBER
Had dinner at stef's house then walk all the way down the dark road....lol..tahsnk god for stef ! i love u babe ! haha..then went *home*....amber and daughter bern have this barbeque party downstairs..it was FUN !! haha....then went back home and then....*drum roll* i saw thus letter on the piano....and it thought it was for DAD but then....i sat my name..ESTHER CHUAH SIEW YEN ! I WAS SO HAPPY..CAUSE IT WAS FOR ME...TILL I SAW the PLKN SIGN....SWT i almost DROP DEAD! AS IN dead !! i was feeled with excitement, emoness, uncertainj feelings..i cant DESCRIBE it !! its just so sudden !! i mean i cant wait to go !! but its so soon! and im gona miss all my friends and family...NO HP, NO MUSIC, NO MSN, NO MP3....NOTHING~!! just ME ALONE..=( lol.....i tore open the letter and read...BALIK PULAU !! 28TH DECEMBER TIL 11 MARCH !! SOBS.... I had to make calls !! called many ppl....lol...then went online and here i am.. TADAA ...Sucha WONDERFUL DAY....XD sighhh...

Me and Stef <3 Bff's =)

2008-11-22T18:41:00.003+08:00

Cam Whore-ING <>

2008-11-22T18:23:00.002+08:00

well......STRESS !! NOT THAT !! haha..i just don't bother putting effort in studying this few days lol.....i've been onlining every nite, on the phone, watching tv DURING SPM! yeah just slap me *slaps* i know pei wen is so gonna kill me =) told u i can't help it. and so is my mum and dad..lol... but surprisingly, they just din stop me from onlining ! sucha miracle..=) well who cares?? haha
lol after sejarah was over..ive got Bible Knowledge to worry about ...soo...

on the 13th of November
Finish maths paper ! Lol...but OMG...some freak stole our freaking hp.. yeah..sucha FREAK.....brainless person =(...GOD BLESS YOU SO MUCH ! =)

on the 14th of November
Happy Birthday Qiu Lin! I love you lots and u know that too =)
Went to dentist appointment then walk all the way from adventist til sunrise mcd just to accompany my bff. then we went to coffee bin =) wee.. =( studying BK the whole day

on the 17th of November
damn....it's Bible Knowledge Day...swt..feel like spilling my brains out...went to GP at night lol.....NEW WING !! ahha...

on the 18th of November
Happy Birthday Amy Cheah !! You're 17 !! haha...and Happy Birthday to Carmen Dear !! Love you lots <3.>

on the 19th of November
No exam cause.................its Scooby Doo's bday ! Happy Bday Mich !! You know you love me. But we love u too [me and stef....i love u more =)]

on the 20th of November
Chemistry paper...sobs...another a just flew away..i'd be lucky if i get a C6! DAMN IT...

on the 22nd of November
Happy Birthday Adelyn ! went to stef's house [ still there...xD]...AND SHE DROVE ME....XD without a P. haha...YET....we tried to study...we really did...BUT..we ended up cam-whoring, video-calling, fooling people and hugging the bear !! xD it was huge....=)....ahaha....and i wonder what will happen next. till then...=]

OMG

2008-11-12T22:07:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG !!

i love today !!~
YEAH THE FACT IS THAT I GET TO THROW SEJARAH OUT OF MY BRAIN!!

BUT GUESS WHAT ??

OMG THIS IS JUST SO EXCITING FOR ME !! Haha...

I SHALL JUST CHILL

I SAT ON A BIKE TODAY !! HAHA
THANKS TO AH LOO !! HAHA...
WE WENT 7-11 TO GET STUFF
IT WAS SO DAMN FUN !! HAHA..
YEAH I KNOW TYPICAL !
GO MAKAN ANGIN NIA MER...
THAT WAS JUST SO COOL XD
AND YEAH BECAUSE OF RIDING ON A BIKE
I DID NOT READ MY SEJARAH
SO I FLUNG MY EXAM...PBB (IM JUST SO SPEECHLESS)
GOD THIS SUCKS !
HAHA...WHATEVER CRAP I WROTE I THINK I CREATED A NEW COUNTRY CALLED ZOMBARDY ??? OMG...
YEAH JUST LAUGH AT ME..JUST LAUGH..
I WAS JUST SO LOST..=(

sigh

2008-11-12T22:04:00.003+08:00

Sigh..
Sejarah...
YOU SUCK..
I HATE YOU
IM JUST SO EXTREMELY FREAKING HAPPY TO THROW YOU OUT FROM MY BRAIN FROM THIS VERY MOMENT. XD

SIGH....BK.....I JUST WAN TO GET OVER YOU.
YOU MAKE ME WANNA SCREAM!
IM GONNA LOCK MYSELF (NOT AT HOME) AND CONCENTRATE ON BK
LOL..JUST SHOOT ME!

SPM =(

2008-11-10T12:27:00.002+08:00

OMG........SPM'S TOMORROW !! AND WHAT THE H*** AM I DOING ON9 ?? CANT HELP IT..SIGH.....HELP ME !! ITS LESS THAN A DAY OR SHUD I SAY AROUND 20 HOURS ??? FREAK IT....:-( MY BK, SEJARAH AND CHEMISTRY IS GOING NO WHERE SIGH...

ALL THE BEST TO MY BFF'S XD. I LOVE YOU ALL !!

P'S : JUST 17 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM =]